How old am I again?

At 24 I feel like I'm 42. I can't describe where I am in life any other way than in a funk. But then again I guess that makes sense after sitting home alone for 10 hours a day. This past week and even now I really wanna go home. Every time I get this thought, though, I follow it by asking myself what is so exciting there that isn't here. After I remember there really isn't anything I quickly decide that sitting on my couch, for yet another day, is the better choice than wasting gas and money. Honestly, pictures and the occasional sun shine are the only things saving me. Quickly losing interest in things and motivation to do anything other than sleep and eat. Tomorrow is Marcus's last day of work for a week, that will be nice.

New hobby: Eating. Boredom eating never tasted so good. Now only if I didn't feel so fat afterward.

I want to go back to school so I can make more money. But even more so I want to go back to school so I can have a graduation like everyone else did. By having their family there celebrating and hugging and kissing you and million times and taking pictures with them at every landmark that has some sort of importance at my university. One day.

I want to go for a walk that isn't in a city, sit beside a stream that isn't crowded with other people and soak in the sun. The only thing that would make that better was if I had a good book and a glass of wine to accompany me. Alas, to dream.

In other news, Marcus is being sent on a training for a week in Minnesota. This isn't happening for another 3 weeks or so but he has come up with the idea that I am somehow going to go with him? How is this going to happen I have no idea since it doesn't really fit into our current financial situation but hey, it's his idea. Go with it.

I have successfully turned our porch into a tropical oasis. Complete with palms, herbs and hanging plants. It's the perfect place to escape the confines of the apartment as well as to entertain guests. Further more it's a great place to get a tan. Don't take any tips from me however or you'll end up with a farmers tan but only on one arm and get sun burn on the front and bottom half of your one leg.

Currently looking for book suggestions. Music suggestions are also welcome. Sometimes I wish there was a website like Pandora for books. That would be cool and convenient.

The discovery of a wine festival that is in July has brightened the prospect of summer. It's the weekend of the 15-17th. Anyone interested is welcome to join and since it's only 15 minutes from where I live you are welcome to stay over.

Those are about all the updates that I have for now. Thanks for stopping by!!